poetry

fragments of your mind spilt on the paper

stalked

smiling

jellymoose says:
sometimes its easy to forget how
jellymoose says:
and then some random reminds u
jellymoose says:
its not how to move muscles
jellymoose says:
its moving the heart

the world seems the be falling around u.....
but the thing is
yr just going higher then them

hello........
an explanation right here;

my poetry is quite a private thing to me and well yea,
some of my poems are worth blogging and will be blogged.
a lot of them will not be.
if you want to read all of my poems ask for my book in person.
I'm sorry if i don't give you my book....it just means i don't want you to read them,
your not loosing much (trust me)

um yea........
my poems are 'dark poems' as one has nicely put it,
and i don't want to be an addition to the people who destroy the Internet.
yea....
Have a nice day
xD

oXoX

This moment may eat you up,
But it will vomit all over the place,
And leave you to clean it up.
The smell lingers.

Blanket of warmth,
Blanket of snow,
Whatever you say,
We don't get much anyway

I have your name tattooed on my arm,
And your face carved into my own,
Where it will stay,
Always

SORRY

Sometimes I don't do what i say,
And I'm sorry.
Sometimes I push you away,
And I'm sorry.
Sometimes the truth hurts more,
But I'm not sorry

Swimming in the ocean that surrounds the black of your eye,
I don't even have to try,
Stay alive,
Because in this never ending sea,
You help me,
Stay afloat

"the thing about a crush is,
sometimes you get crushed"

Each poem
Each line
Strengthening
Strengthening the rope,
The rope that binds,
Binds poet and reader.

Warmth from the fire,
Can still burn you

Weave it all together
Just to slowly unpick the pattern

Build up a house
Just to burn its down

Pointlessness

Silence

Silence
Its what holds us
Its what breaks us
Its what brings us together
But splits us apart.
Sometimes it seems to last forever,
and sometimes doesn't even start
Silence,
Its what we wish for everyday
But hate in so many ways
silence,
Like God snatched words from the air,
But still left them hanging there

Tonight,
The stars aren't embarrassed,
They are scared
and hidden away

DESTINATION

Lost inside a destination.
Trying to get there,
But lost
I don't know where
I am going
Don't know what
I am doing.
Trying to remember my goal,
But can't put my finger on it.
I'm lost inside a destination,
trapped inside a destination,
And can't get out

Sun is still on the horizon
Fighting to stay up
But getting dragged down
And you stand watching
Holding your cup
Warming your hands
Still amazed,
Even though it happens everyday,
The sun is there,
And it just seems to fade away,
It still catches your eye,
When it sinks into night

NOT UNDERSTANDING

We pass our lives,
Not understanding,
The meaning of life,
Not understanding.
We walk miles
For small reasons,
Not understanding.
We work so hard,
To get better,
Just to die,
Leaving it all behind,
Still not understanding.
We buy them all gifts,
To earn them,
When we know,
We will lose them,
Not understanding
We continue,
Smiling,
Working,
Living,
Breathing,
And not understanding

Pinned up photographs
What colour is the wall
Behind all the memories?
Painted with times,
With you and friends
With the family.
The story never ends,
So many memories,
We hold so dear,
But so many photos
Not up there ,
On my wall.
Hidden away
From those days,
That you remember most,
But haunt you like a ghost.
The ones,
You want to forget,
But never can

So many words
Meant to be spoken
But so many words
Broken,
Because of fear

Enchantment
Lost in the sky
Tears fill your eyes
Felling so alive
Into the stars dive
The moon will drive,
You crazy
Crazy for rainbows
Where sun and rain goes
Its throws
Its beauty at you
Fixed eyes
To the sky's

Devastation is overwhelming
Hunger spreading
Families lost
Diseases gained
Cold nights
Hot days
With no shelter
And much death.
Poverty,
IS the hardest cancer to treat

Existence is bearly there
She is unnoticed
Hand never reaches out
Keeping to herself
Always
Invisible

Intoxication fills your body
Depending on it for happiness
Smoke fills your lungs
Depending on it for happiness
One more sip
One more inhaling of poison
One more pill
One more disappointment
Still depending in it
For happiness

(based on Sofi's speach)

Reminded of bad times
Small secret crimes
Drink away the pain
Trying to kill the shame
Not the problem solver
Pray for the miracle
Pour the cup full
Find this treasure
Drinking or prayer
Where did daddy go?

Closed doors
Paper covered floors
Curtain painted windows
Closed forever
Sun peaks through the cracks
Into this empty room
Empty house
A ray of hope
Of happiness

This happy ending
In this fairytale
With the happy princess
Who found her prince

Mel and Aaron's poem game!

Tear-drops of rain
Melting on a summers day
sun takes away the pain
And you're here with me
It feels so right
Nothing but a soft breeze
Kissing the tips of the trees
Below on the ground
An umbrella lies alone
Walking in soaked clothes
Hand in hand again

Missing you
Nothing i can do
To bring you back
Everything between you and me

Watch the pattern fill the page
Watch the people pass the days
Watch the teacher show the ways
Watch the watcher fix the gaze

Fill the sky's
With lullabies
Raining lyrics
sound of acoustics,
Ringing in your ear
Singing the words
Fly with the birds
High on music
and sudden silence

Autumn leaves
Rolled up sleeves
Crimsons, orange
And yellows
Walk through the shallow
Layer of colour
Lying in the grass
Watch them fall above you
Seasons don't last
Each one passes through
Autumn leaves
Colours of the sunset

Dream in black and white
Paint in the middle of the night
Out of reach
Out of sight
Paint the lines
Don't seem straight
Paint the lies
They're so faint
Paint the face
of a saint
Never waking up?

Neon Glow
City lights
Where to go
City nights
Colour clashes
Time Square flair
Taxi cab
Home

Take your time
Take your pills
No straight lines
These are your thrills
Just throw it away
Is your life not worth it?

rainbow

Rainbow catastrophe
Colour collage
Blended feeling
Rain and sun

Inspired
Small talk heroes
Your fired
Turned up sterio

Empty house,
Music booming,
Missing your spouse
Place so gloomy

Run away
Drive
Forgive yesterday
Be alive
For once

Breath
Freedom
Sleep
In

I'll be back
Maybe tomorrow
Follow the track
And let go of the sorrow

These days
Who knows
What goes
On,
In his mind
My mind
Might just find
Its the same

Acoustic lullaby,
Tears fill your eyes
Lyrics you memorised
Have left you
Try remember
Last December
Summer sky's
Boyfriends lies
I recall them now,
"I'm gonna let it go"

Numbness
Unsure
What did i miss?
Awkward moments,
Strangers meet,
Moved feet,
Nights sleepless
Turn, toss
No loss
Just trying
To do right
Fight

THE ROOM

One window room
With one cardboard box
Fifteen cryed tears
And no drying ones
One girl
Facing many fears
Furniture is naught
Sat there and thought
Empty room
Green for jealousy
Purple for looks
One blasting radio
That she can't hear
Blocked out
One window room

Breaking away
From the rest
You're trying your best

Even though,
They say you belong
You know you don't

Just try a little
To cry a little less
And don't break down

Walk
Night covers me
Moon guides me
Stars lift me
Orion is strong after all
Can't stop
Cold nips my nose
My fingers tingle
Run on
And on
And on
Into the darkness

I care
But don't
I'll help
But won't
Don't ask
If I'm ok
Because I'm not
Don't give me
The time of day
I don't deserve it,
I'm here for you
You're not here for me
I tell you what to do
Drown in ocean
Sea
Down in words
Pages
Drown in me

Unknown,
Unwanted,
Friendship,
Or not,
Trying, but not winning,
More or less.
Less or more.
Maybe,
Maybe not,
Most probably,
Not.

You feel this emptiness
Is now filled
And the burning heat
Now chilled
And you smile
When your with him
And as you dance
You feel free
And you cry
But some reason,
Your happy
And when you scream,
It's only because of this feeling,
And you can't help but notice,
that in all the pain and sorrow
He's always looking forward
To the mystery of tomorrow

I'm trying to fix this
So so hard
Stupid freak
I try to guard
and she's running away
Like trying to stick to together with tape
But cut yourself with the dispenser
And you're scarred for life
Burn me....Scar me
Take my life
I don't care
As long as i save yours

Like drowning
I can't breathe
Bleeding to death
And you won't leave
Go away
Please
I'm begging you
Just leave
Let me breathe

Open up
Maybe
Maybe not
Shut up
No one cares
What you got to say
Don't share
Just hide it away
Don't trust anyone
Not tomorrow
Not today
Hide your pain
Long sleeve t-shirt
Walk in the rain
Pretend it doesn't hurt

Gasping for breath
I am choking
Fading away
I'm so dizzy
Without you here
It's emptiness
Emptiness

I fear your thoughts
I want to know
But yet i don't
I have nowhere else to go
Do you understand?
Do you?

You think he is shallow
But you'll drown in this ocean
His head isn't hollow
He just doesn't leave it open

Don't blame the tyrant,
Blame yourselves
You rave and you rant
Stupid empty shelf

You look in the reflection
From yourself you need protection
You don't know what to do
You really don't
But how are you supposed to,
When the enemy is you

I scroll down the page with my eyes
These words you right seem to hypnotise
I can't seem to compear
With what I'm writing here

You say I'm mature
But I still don't seem to understand
And I'm not quite sure
Where in your mind do I land

What am I supose to do with this secret
With this blood that stains
Am i going to live in regret
What can i do?

I know you know
But do you care
So what am i suppose to do,
With this secret we share?

You seem misunderstood
Your eyes blur
You would end it if you could
But your minds in a stir

You don't know what to do
Your a disaster today
For all that you have been through
You don't deserve the pain

Your tired and weary
You can't pay attention
You want your godmother fairy
To give you happiness

You sit in class
And listen to the deafening sounds
You want to disappear
But for some reason
Stick around

You lie on your bed
And watch the roof
That hangs over your head
You imagine it crashing down
And then you would be dead

Smashing guitars on the ground
Just to hear the deafening sound

He reads me like a book
He knows just where to look
He talks without words
He knows all my pains and hurts

He has me all figured out
He knows what I'm about
He can see through me
He knows my sea of tragedy

Disapear
Hide from fear
What do you care
If I'm not here